All Apologies

I came to the shocking realization the other night that I am letting other people's piss poor attitudes change me. I took a look at my last few blogs and thought Geez these are really about negativity. The thing is though, most of the time it is about other people being negative and how it affects me, rather than me just waking up angry. I am a happy person, with a beautiful child, and I even have a Not-better-half, to help me raise him. I have a best friend who deals with all of thiese things with me without a blink, even though she has her fair share and then some of people who do not so kosher things to her too. I daily thank God, that she's there, because a lot of the time it takes her looking from the outside in, to point out the humor in ALL situations. And I have her husband who lends her ear to me daily, and never complains about the hours I keep her on the phone. Even when he doesn't understand how we could start a conversation about fishing poles and end it on the retard we call the president. I have two parents who love me in their own weird way. She the stoic, stayed one, and him, well he's a horse of a different color! I have a lot of people that I love, and who love me. My life is filled with humor and love, and that is what this blog is about. Not hatred. I was a horribly angry child and teenager, and my early twenties were not all sunshine and daisies either. But I have spent a very long time trying to get myself right with God, turn the other cheek, and let things roll of my back. As my mother says "Be the Duck Lynn, be the duck, watch the water roll right off". It took me a long time to be positive and learn how to give the things that I cannot change to God. But as of late, I forgot that along the way. I spent all my time dwelling on the wrongs that have been done to me and not the rights. Not the things that I do have. So I want to apologize for loosing sight of things for a minute. In with the good, out with the bad. I can't promise there won't be the occasional "Are you f*ing kidding me blog", after all I am human. But it will be a lot more positive from here on out.